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bam_trigger_bam @ 2007-01-13T08:07:00

2007-01-13T13:07:09Z

They're dying to be me...
And I'm dying to be someone else.
This isn't easy.
And I'm not ready to care.
</3 Please just kill me before I find out the contents of last night. I'm sorry for whoever I hurt in the process of regret.

bam_trigger_bam @ 2006-12-17T03:11:00

2006-12-17T08:08:22Z

suzydangelo (1:56:08 AM): you never ask me to cuddle.... am i not cute?
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (1:56:22 AM): haha i didnt ask anyone
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (1:56:42 AM): and you are haha. but i didnt ask nonnnnya
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (1:56:43 AM): lol
suzydangelo (1:56:50 AM): you asked in your bulletin
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (1:57:42 AM): well
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (1:57:46 AM): not a specific haha
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (1:58:00 AM): god people are so dumb
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (1:58:09 AM): i had a political debate/argument with this girl
suzydangelo (1:58:11 AM): no... you didnt say "i'd like to cuddle with suzy" and that hurt my feelings
suzydangelo (1:58:15 AM): hahaha... oh god
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (1:58:17 AM): for an hour and a half
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (1:58:22 AM): last night
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (1:58:38 AM): right
suzydangelo (1:58:41 AM): you're avoiding my argument
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (1:58:42 AM): so it was about
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (1:58:46 AM): no wait ill go back to it
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (1:58:47 AM): haha
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (1:58:48 AM): one sec
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (1:58:49 AM): but yeah
suzydangelo (1:58:52 AM): k
suzydangelo (1:58:53 AM): lol
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (1:59:08 AM): it was about the govt and how i think 9/11 is a conspiracy and etc
suzydangelo (1:59:12 AM): did she think louie vitton was a president?
suzydangelo (1:59:26 AM): OMG... did you watch loose change?
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (1:59:36 AM): and how noone believes anything because the govt has power and that the united states is a robotic empire
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (1:59:40 AM): yes and i believe it fully
suzydangelo (1:59:44 AM): omg
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (1:59:44 AM): and how people are robots
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (1:59:49 AM): and believe all medie
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (1:59:52 AM): and govt
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (1:59:54 AM): and how i dont
suzydangelo (1:59:57 AM): derek... that's my favorite documentary
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (1:59:59 AM): and she was like omg this and that
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (2:00:05 AM): im so smart blah blah
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (2:00:07 AM): so she ims me
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (2:00:10 AM): like 10 mins ago
suzydangelo (2:00:15 AM): i think ive watched it atleast 6 times and i made my whole family watch it
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (2:00:19 AM): and goes derek this isnt evena fucking joke
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (2:00:21 AM): but today
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (2:00:44 AM): this guy came up to me and was dressed in a suit and tie and he had a voice box that sounded like a robot and he said he had lung cancer
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (2:00:47 AM): and he knew my name
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (2:00:50 AM): and etc
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (2:00:52 AM): and im like ok?
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (2:01:01 AM): and shes like he kept talking aboit govt
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (2:01:09 AM): and then shes like i need to call you
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (2:01:22 AM): so she calls me and i missd the call and it was a blocked number
suzydangelo (2:01:40 AM): wtf
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (2:01:43 AM): and i said i need to call you cuz i nevr get calls, so she gives me her number and i call it. its some kid, prob her friend
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (2:01:45 AM): named steven
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (2:01:56 AM): she goes omg wtf thsts my number but the guy today said his name was steven
suzydangelo (2:02:06 AM): hahaha
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (2:02:08 AM): so she calls me again and i never got the call and she left a voicemail
suzydangelo (2:02:10 AM): is she psycho?
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (2:02:15 AM): and its one of those recordings
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (2:02:18 AM): like a fake voice
suzydangelo (2:02:25 AM): hahaha
suzydangelo (2:02:26 AM): wtf
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (2:02:28 AM): that you tell ity what to say
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (2:02:37 AM): andf it comes out in a robotic girlvoice
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (2:02:40 AM): you knwo thode?
suzydangelo (2:02:42 AM): you're apart of some gov't conspiracy
suzydangelo (2:02:45 AM): you know too much
suzydangelo (2:02:49 AM): yea
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (2:02:51 AM): lmao shes an idiot
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (2:02:52 AM): shes
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (2:02:56 AM): trying to make fun of me
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (2:03:00 AM): and the funny thing id
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (2:03:12 AM): i never thought the gvt was robots
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (2:03:26 AM): i said the poeple are robots because they beleieve everything
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (2:03:34 AM): aka robotic empire
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (2:03:38 AM): lol
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (2:03:42 AM): shes an idiot
suzydangelo (2:03:50 AM): i want to get in this politcal conversation with you
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (2:03:52 AM): shes jsut mad that i made huge points in the argument
suzydangelo (2:03:56 AM): but im terribly argumentive
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (2:03:56 AM): she even tried to tell me
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (2:04:11 AM): i mean she even tried to make an example so i could understand somethiong
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (2:04:13 AM): and she goes
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (2:04:28 AM): derek so your parents lying to you is like the govt lying to you
suzydangelo (2:04:40 AM): wtf?
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (2:04:43 AM): and im like exactly. yout parents tell you santa and the easter bunny are real
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (2:04:45 AM): you grow up
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (2:04:47 AM): and theyre fake
suzydangelo (2:04:51 AM): you're telling me this and im losing brain cells
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (2:05:05 AM): same thing with govt. some people realize
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (2:05:10 AM): that govt is fake
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (2:05:15 AM): theyre the smart ones
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (2:05:33 AM): so she brought up an exam[ple lol
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (2:05:36 AM): and i proved her wronghaha
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (2:06:10 AM): haha i have some of the convo
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (2:06:12 AM): dont im her tho
2:06:30 AM: Attempting to directly connect to DEDGER0FLxR0FL.
2:06:30 AM: You are now directly connected to DEDGER0FLxR0FL.
DEDGER0FLxR0FL (2:06:33 AM): Mushpuddle55: if something has power, then it is the aforementioned 'bullshit, blahblah'. the government has power, the government is 'bullshit' blahblah

Mushpuddle55: you cant just answer 'because they have power' to everything

D EDGE R0FLxR0FL: thats all it is

D EDGE R0FLxR0FL: power

D EDGE R0FLxR0FL: its as easy as that

D EDGE R0FLxR0FL: if you have power/money

D EDGE R0FLxR0FL: you own the world

Mushpuddle55: there are all different levels of power- a parent has power over their young, dont they?

D EDGE R0FLxR0FL: exactly

Mushpuddle55: does that make the parent bullshit and fake?

D EDGE R0FLxR0FL: yes

D EDGE R0FLxR0FL: santa clause

D EDGE R0FLxR0FL: the easter bunny

D EDGE R0FLxR0FL: you believed it right?

D EDGE R0FLxR0FL: boom

D EDGE R0FLxR0FL: there we go

Mushpuddle55: and as one grows older, they realize the truth

D EDGE R0FLxR0FL: and i did

D EDGE R0FLxR0FL: applause

D EDGE R0FLxR0FL: lol

Mushpuddle55: the easter bunny and santa claus arent eternal, they're figured out as one ages

D EDGE R0FLxR0FL: exactly. and once you reach a certain understanding of things then you realize whats real and whats not

D EDGE R0FLxR0FL: i did

Mushpuddle55: so now, with your example, you're also insinuating that as one grows older, they learn more about the government because the government allows them to, just as a pernt allows their children to realize the truth of santa claus?

D EDGE R0FLxR0FL: no the government doesnt let anyone. which brings backo to reading cards. the news team finds the news

D EDGE R0FLxR0FL: there goes the secrets

Mushpuddle55: so, your easter bunny analogy is weak and pointless. okay.

D EDGE R0FLxR0FL: haha no

Mushpuddle55: i just completley proved it wrong though

D EDGE R0FLxR0FL: how? the govt is like parents. parents lie but then the kids finally find it out

D EDGE R0FLxR0FL: the parents dont slowly let it out

D EDGE R0FLxR0FL: the kids find it out

D EDGE R0FLxR0FL: by other friends and other news and etc

D EDGE R0FLxR0FL: same thing with our fake ass shit government

Mushpuddle55: but, according to you, 'no the government doesnt let anyone.', a response to my 'so now, with your example, you're also insinuating that as one grows older, they learn more about the government because the government allows them to, just as a pernt allows their children to realize the truth of santa claus?'

D EDGE R0FLxR0FL: they try to kep secrets

D EDGE R0FLxR0FL: then they get out

D EDGE R0FLxR0FL: because of snoops

D EDGE R0FLxR0FL: then

D EDGE R0FLxR0FL: the govt haqving the power they do

D EDGE R0FLxR0FL: can deny anything

Mushpuddle55: how can you discern the depths to which said secrets are revealed?

D EDGE R0FLxR0FL: ANYTHING

D EDGE R0FLxR0FL: and everyone

Mushpuddle55: anyone can deny anything

D EDGE R0FLxR0FL: will believe

Mushpuddle55: i can deny whatever i want, the government can, etc

D EDGE R0FLxR0FL: aka

D EDGE R0FLxR0FL: ROBOTIC EMPIRE

D EDGE R0FLxR0FL: lol

Mushpuddle55: not everyone believes, there are skeptics everywhere

D EDGE R0FLxR0FL: im one

D EDGE R0FLxR0FL: hahahahah

D EDGE R0FLxR0FL: i dont like the govt

D EDGE R0FLxR0FL: the end

D EDGE R0FLxR0FL: haha

Mushpuddle55: yeah, but usually a skeptic is well versed in every political subject

D EDGE R0FLxR0FL: i wont become one of the robots

Mushpuddle55: knowledge is power

D EDGE R0FLxR0FL: who believe everything

D EDGE R0FLxR0FL: no

D EDGE R0FLxR0FL: money is power

D EDGE R0FLxR0FL: haha

D EDGE R0FLxR0FL: and power is power. if you have it then you have it

D EDGE R0FLxR0FL: govt has it

Mushpuddle55: and dont you think that in some cases, money is aquiesed via knowledge, and vise versa?

D EDGE R0FLxR0FL: and they dont have knowledge for shit

D EDGE R0FLxR0FL: our whole party sucks

D EDGE R0FLxR0FL: what do they do for the U.S?

D EDGE R0FLxR0FL: raise taxes, gas, houses, mortgage

D EDGE R0FLxR0FL: help the poor?

D EDGE R0FLxR0FL: nop

D EDGE R0FLxR0FL: do they help us in any way?

D EDGE R0FLxR0FL: no

Mushpuddle55: you can't ask that question because you don't really know anything about the government or economics

D EDGE R0FLxR0FL: we pay for our health insurace

Mushpuddle55: like, you really honestly cant make these assumptions

D EDGE R0FLxR0FL: we pay for our life insurance

D EDGE R0FLxR0FL: we pay for our insurance

D EDGE R0FLxR0FL: on everything

D EDGE R0FLxR0FL: we dont get help

D EDGE R0FLxR0FL: we dont get cures

D EDGE R0FLxR0FL: we dont get breaks

Mushpuddle55: to make an assumption without a strong knowledge base just makes you look ignorant

D EDGE R0FLxR0FL: we are fucking wage slaves because of our stupid ass govt

Mushpuddle55: wage slaves insinuates communism

D EDGE R0FLxR0FL: everyone works for all this money

Mushpuddle55: we have the power to make as much as we want

D EDGE R0FLxR0FL: where does it all go

D EDGE R0FLxR0FL: to the govt

D EDGE R0FLxR0FL: govt tax

D EDGE R0FLxR0FL: and in our pockets but it all goes back to them

D EDGE R0FLxR0FL: its all bullshit

Mushpuddle55: well, yeah, how else do you expect roads and schools and public libraries and all the be financed?

D EDGE R0FLxR0FL: fuck the govt

D EDGE R0FLxR0FL: ha yeah

D EDGE R0FLxR0FL: cuz our schools are really good

D EDGE R0FLxR0FL: lmao

Mushpuddle55: do you know anything about keynsian economics?

Mushpuddle55: no, obviously not

D EDGE R0FLxR0FL: point proven

D EDGE R0FLxR0FL: teyre shit

D EDGE R0FLxR0FL: theyre*

D EDGE R0FLxR0FL: they dont do anything

D EDGE R0FLxR0FL: spending money on wars

Mushpuddle55: government spending is what brought us out of the great depression

D EDGE R0FLxR0FL: that never shouldve happend

D EDGE R0FLxR0FL: they dont believe in peace

D EDGE R0FLxR0FL: i do

D EDGE R0FLxR0FL: itll never happen

D EDGE R0FLxR0FL: so ill make peace with my life

D EDGE R0FLxR0FL: its good enough for me

suzydangelo (2:06:35 AM): i wont
suzydangelo (2:06:40 AM): i dont talk to idiots
DEDGER0FLxR0FL (2:06:42 AM): haha
suzydangelo (2:11:43 AM): my opinion of goverment is... the goverment used to be respected because most of the goverment established was thru a certain religion... it was completely religion-based. now that most religion has subsided from certain laws and more freedoms we're given... people stopped respecting the goverment... people stopped paying their taxes. the more our goverment falls apart and elects these assholes that care more about getting their dick sucked in the oval office more than they care about teaching decent moral values and being a model citizen... the less goverment will ever be respected. its not that people were blind to the shit goverment pulled back then... its just that the presidents were model citizens... so no matter what they did... our people backed them up... fought for theie country... now... no one wants to go to war... back then... it was nothing but honor to die for your country
2:13:33 AM: You are no longer directly connected to DEDGER0FLxR0FL.
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (2:13:36 AM): es
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (2:13:41 AM): exactly
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (2:13:47 AM): perfectly said
suzydangelo (2:13:47 AM): there was no excuse for any of these wars... it was all about the power, the land and the money... none of it was to protect us... i dont blieve that for a second
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (2:14:11 AM): either do i
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (2:14:15 AM): this is my idea
suzydangelo (2:15:52 AM): the problem is... there's so much hate between our people that we could never be like cuba or any third world country who have sood up for their country and gotten rid of their shitty leaders
suzydangelo (2:17:26 AM): no... what do we have? elections. great... now we get to be divided by democracy and republic because it's cool to be classified by how much money and power you have
suzydangelo (2:17:55 AM): "do i vote for the asshole... or the rich asshole... shit... i can't decided"
suzydangelo (2:17:58 AM): decide*
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (2:18:57 AM): the government is another fake media based group. the whole cabinet of people is a bunch of political liars. they lie for their country because theyre in the highest office for their country. they can pull off any prank or any lie because of the power they have, including 9/11. they lie to us through news on tv and press conferences. religion is downhill more than ever. our country runs on batteries, we believe everything, we are robots. This so called amazing empire, The U.S.A. is a robotic empire. we're in war for no reason. the reason 9/11 was don by government is simple, we have freedom of war now to attack anyone who was "involved". we wont ever have world peace because american government is a bully.
suzydangelo (2:22:59 AM): no one believes the shit goverment puts out... not even politicians believe that shit. but what other choice do we have? most people are just so passive about it cause what do we do? why bitch about it if you have no power? every goverment thinks they are superior to another one... nothings great about any of them... we're too free. ANYONE can be president. nothing is sacred... nothing is displinary... nothing is moralistic. we live in a pile of shit for a country but its like... we're so free its pretty much like "you dont like it... get out" do you know in canada there is hardly any crime? people leave their doors wide opne most of the time. we'll never have that... because they're country is run on respect and pride... like most other countries. we're run on lies and deceit. power and greed. classifaction and organized religion.
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (2:25:32 AM): exactly. i know how it is in different countries. i hear it all the time. its because they believe in protecting eachother
suzydangelo (2:25:41 AM): they have PRIDE
suzydangelo (2:27:00 AM): what's our idea of pride, derek? "let's hang up a flag on my pick up truck and listen to country songs about war" that's pride? since when is supporting a war having pride in your country? if you are proud of your country you would try your best to get us out of the war... instead of raising taxes to keep us in it
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (2:27:51 AM): that will never happen because americans are stubborn and have their own certain lifestyles
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (2:27:59 AM): thats why their is such racism
suzydangelo (2:28:01 AM): the most pride anyone has ever had in this country was when black people found out clinton was a balla
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (2:28:03 AM): there
suzydangelo (2:29:54 AM): we're holding ourselves back because we constantly fight for freedom. we constantly fight to be individuals to the highest power. criminals believe they should be allowed to commit crimes. people believe the goverment owes them the world. "i pay taxes... im no criminal"
suzydangelo (2:32:03 AM): do you know how many organized religions we have in the united states. do you know how many CULTS in the united states are perfectly constituted institutions? they are allowed to hide themselves behind religion to justify their beliefs aslong as they dont believe in mass suicide... because that's the only thing that makes them "illegal"
suzydangelo (2:35:31 AM): haahah @ my bulletin
suzydangelo (2:36:36 AM): i think i scared you away
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (2:37:00 AM): whos bulletin haha. i dont see any of yours.
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (2:37:02 AM): and no you didnt
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (2:37:08 AM): thats america for you
suzydangelo (2:37:19 AM): the bulletin you posted
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (2:37:21 AM): everything is illegal business, set up all by govt
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (2:37:23 AM): its all money
suzydangelo (2:37:27 AM): with all my ranting
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (2:37:31 AM): hahaha
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (2:37:33 AM): its good tho
suzydangelo (2:37:58 AM): cults pay taxes. therefore they arent criminals
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (2:38:10 AM): its all money and all greed
suzydangelo (2:40:06 AM): even though their beliefs are unmoralistic... statisticly... cults bring in 18% of the countries yearly budget as of 1995. since then... about 80 more cults have been extabilished within the US
suzydangelo (2:41:35 AM): and oddly enough... about 20 -25% of our budget is put aside for weapons of mass destruction, secret goverment agencies and of course... our army.
suzydangelo (2:42:52 AM): so why get rid of something they essentially need to keep their heads above water? these are people that give their lives and every cent they make to be apart of these cults. its one more way to get people to pay the goverment... besides taxes... pay for religion... give to your churches.
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (2:45:20 AM): suzy youre smart
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (2:45:43 AM): you know youre stuff. if you argued witht that girl you wouldve had her so mad
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (2:45:43 AM): haha
suzydangelo (2:46:46 AM): hahaha
suzydangelo (2:47:08 AM): i dont argue... i just justify my opinions and beliefs with FACTS... and not stuff i learned on the daily show
suzydangelo (2:48:01 AM): and i dont think im smart... im just aware... i like to be aware of how much shit im fed daily... and i pay taxes... so i like to know how much bullshit im paying for that i dont agree with
suzydangelo (2:49:25 AM): so... to lighten the current mood...
suzydangelo (2:49:57 AM): suzydangelo (1:58:11 AM): no... you didnt say "i'd like to cuddle with suzy" and that hurt my feelings
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (2:52:54 AM): haha
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (2:53:04 AM): well i said who wants to cuddle
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (2:53:09 AM): so it couldve been you
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (2:53:10 AM): hahaha
suzydangelo (2:54:43 AM): no. it was an open invitation. i dont answer open invitations. i only answer SPECIAL invitations. but i dont care if we cuddle... we should get together to have some nice intelligent conversation sometime
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (2:55:27 AM): Ahaha then lets do it!
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (2:55:32 AM): lemme know what dayyy
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (2:55:34 AM): ha
suzydangelo (2:55:41 AM): =]
suzydangelo (2:56:43 AM): when it gets nicer out... we should go to the beach and talk. i love that. or if you dont like the sun we'll go at night and we wont have to wait for good weather. lol
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (2:57:28 AM): hahahaha yeah! im in!
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (2:57:32 AM): beach at night is awesome
suzydangelo (2:57:42 AM): i love it
suzydangelo (2:57:46 AM): i love talking there
suzydangelo (2:57:49 AM): venting
suzydangelo (2:58:39 AM): let me know the next time ur free... cause id love to hear your opinions instead of just ranting on about mine. lol
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (2:58:55 AM): :-) alright ha
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (2:58:58 AM): i will let you know
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (2:59:08 AM): and btw see the inconvenient truth
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (2:59:10 AM): its really good
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (2:59:12 AM): haha
suzydangelo (2:59:32 AM): documentary?
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (2:59:42 AM): the al gore movie
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (2:59:46 AM): about ozone
suzydangelo (2:59:55 AM): im a documentary FREAK... omg... give me cartoons and documentaries and im set
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (2:59:56 AM): its realy good an [pretty scary
suzydangelo (3:00:03 AM): crazy
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (3:00:11 AM): of whats going to happen to america
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (3:00:15 AM): if we dont change our ways
suzydangelo (3:00:20 AM): hahaha
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (3:00:21 AM): the funny thing is
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (3:00:23 AM): in the video
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (3:00:26 AM): he sats
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (3:00:38 AM): says* the only 2 countries not doing anything about the ozone
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (3:00:44 AM): are US and Australia
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (3:00:46 AM): funny eh
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (3:01:13 AM): whys that? because americans believe we're the best country in the world and we're so powerufl nothing will happen
suzydangelo (3:01:16 AM): australia goverment are hippies and wildlife freaks
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (3:01:35 AM): ha say that when youre in a bowl of water and youre the ceral in this water called ocean
suzydangelo (3:01:36 AM): they are way more in to protecting the rain forests then conserving our ozone
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (3:01:50 AM): lol
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (3:01:54 AM): you have to see that movie
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (3:01:56 AM): its scary
suzydangelo (3:02:00 AM): alright
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (3:02:02 AM): like what will be underwater
suzydangelo (3:02:03 AM): i promise i will
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (3:02:06 AM): if we dont stop it
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (3:02:10 AM): its horrible
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (3:02:11 AM): and true
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (3:03:29 AM): i have to go to bed tho. i have to wake up kinda earlt tomm :-/
suzydangelo (3:03:44 AM): dude... in the future... we will all be apart of an organization, religion, gang or cult. we're so set on being individuals that we want something for everything. what do you think will happen if we all create our own mini goverment systems. wars within our country
suzydangelo (3:04:08 AM): in maine... there is the first athiest church...
suzydangelo (3:04:14 AM): does that even make sense?
suzydangelo (3:05:00 AM): awww... you lameface. i was getting into this
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (3:05:11 AM): i know about that. and theres other ones too
suzydangelo (3:05:16 AM): it was like... political cybersex
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (3:05:23 AM): like in texas. it was on the news
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (3:05:25 AM): lol
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (3:05:27 AM): hahahahaha
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (3:05:32 AM): im sorry
suzydangelo (3:05:39 AM): maine started it apparently
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (3:05:40 AM): im like dying
suzydangelo (3:05:43 AM): awww
suzydangelo (3:05:47 AM): i wore you out =]
suzydangelo (3:05:56 AM): you got a boner off of my intelligence... dont lie
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (3:06:04 AM): hahahaahhahaahaha
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (3:06:05 AM): omg lmao
suzydangelo (3:06:22 AM): =]
suzydangelo (3:06:24 AM): ADMIT IT
suzydangelo (3:06:56 AM): "oh suzy... talk dirty to me. tell me about the icecaps melting... oooooo"
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (3:07:38 AM): lmaooo'
suzydangelo (3:08:16 AM): hahaha
suzydangelo (3:08:19 AM): oh man
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (3:08:54 AM): hahaha fun times
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (3:09:02 AM): youre pretty cool suzy ha
suzydangelo (3:09:07 AM): awwww
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (3:09:08 AM): i need to pass out now lol
suzydangelo (3:09:14 AM): you're not bad yourself
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (3:09:18 AM): :-)
suzydangelo (3:09:28 AM): alright cutie... good ranting to you
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (3:09:30 AM): ill talk to you tommorow tho . moss deffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffff
suzydangelo (3:09:36 AM): =]
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (3:09:42 AM): haha yeah i liked hearing our opninion
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (3:09:45 AM): your*
suzydangelo (3:09:46 AM): dont get cute with me!
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (3:09:50 AM): bahaha
suzydangelo (3:10:08 AM): nightttt sweetheart
D EDGE R0FLxR0FL (3:10:21 AM): goodnight!! <33
“D EDGE R0FLxR0FL” signed off at 3:10:26 AM.

quote, unquote

2006-12-12T23:15:16Z

My heart is torn between his words
"I'd Never" And "I'm Sorry"
Always sound the same to me
Friendship ruined by
"I Hope So"s And "Maybe He Wont"s
Let's salvage tonight
With every apology we can make

Quote, Unquote
I never meant to hurt you
Quote, Unquote
I wish the things I said were true

From the beginning you had the history
Of all the things I let pass by me
"I've Been Hurt" And "You're Not Worth It"
Let's save those for the next intervention

Quote, Unquote
I never meant to hurt you
Quote, Unquote
I wish the things I said were true

6 month selibacy.

2006-08-17T04:35:16Z

No sex for six months.
This is including oral sex.
Only touching and kissing.

No junk food for six months.
I'm allowed to eat as many carbs as I want but the food has to be prepared healthy.
No fried or barbequed food.
I can eat pasta, rice and potatoes just aslong as there is no gravy and no ragu.
Lemon sauce will do.
I can eat chicken or steak aslong as its prepared in a skillet or grilled. No ketchup, no barbeque sauce.
No fast food unless it's a salad.
I have to drink atleast 3 bottles of water a day and one smoothie, shake, etc. that contains protein.

I CAN DO IT!!!

running from helicopters part 2

2006-06-25T21:14:48Z

Shaking my hand loose.
Don't let them see you infatuated
A torn up users manual
Dialogue of a parasite
I'm sorry I ruined your image
I'm sorry I spent the night
Hang up
Goodbye
Rubbing eyes awake
Afraid of midnight mistakes

Running from helicopters and 3 am phone calls

2006-06-23T03:57:19Z

Everyone knows
This is the best bet I can place
Leaning on his words
After knowing how they taste
Just calling to say hello
Started missing you 25 minutes ago
Hang up
Goodbye
Nice knowing you for just one night
Let's get together again sometime
And spill our empty hearts
I'm so hungry for another toxic let down
Hang up
Goodbye

MIDTOWN

2006-06-04T19:24:51Z

"Become What You Hate"

I thought I found someone
I thought I had something I could trust
I still can't believe what happened
It's not that you lied to us
It's not that our friendship was a front
It's just that I can't see the real in you

Yeah for years I was afraid
Now I can finally say

That I'm afraid that you've become
Everything that you had hated
I'm waiting
For this to blow away

How could I have been so blind
How could I have ignored so many signs
Especially when my friends warned me
About your deceptive side
And that your friendship was a lie

Yeah for years I was betrayed
Now I can finally say

That I'm afraid that you've become
Everything that you had hated
I'm waiting
For this to blow away

I've been working for
Something oh so fake
But it's never too late

To correct the faults
So many others made
I know you don't care about whats right or fair

I heard you say your future is looking so great

I've been working for
Something oh so fake
But I'm not working for you no more

[I told you everything you were. And I still don't think I've done enough. I want you to stop. And until then. Goodbye. If losing me helps you... then I'm not afraid to be alone. I love you.]

My American Heart

2006-05-24T15:37:42Z

Giggidy
Giggidy
NOSEBLEED

Haha.
I can't even think right now.
Amazing night.
=]

Dustin: "SUPERBLEEDER"

Cake fights and silly string make my hair feel gross.

I'm potty trained...

2006-05-07T21:52:18Z

So does anyone want to take me in for a week?

Please save me from living with my grandparents. omg I'd shoot myself after 2 days!!!

Prefferably someone who lives in Plantation, Sunrise, Pembroke Pines...

I'll pay for all my own food and I don't take up much space.

I work 6 days a week so I'm not around much.

Let me know.

bam_trigger_bam @ 2006-04-14T12:17:00

2006-04-14T16:21:23Z

exploding rob: oh man this song gets me juiced to skate.
exploding rob: hah im a dork
IPROMISEtopullit: no way
IPROMISEtopullit: you're passionate about something
IPROMISEtopullit: i love that
exploding rob: ive been rollerblading for almost ten years now. Its the only thing thats been there for me all this time and i love it with all of my heart and soul.
IPROMISEtopullit: i hate guys who have nothing going on in their lives...
exploding rob: haha i have nothing going on besides that.
exploding rob: im a lost soul.
IPROMISEtopullit: dont act like it's nothing
exploding rob: all i ever wanna do is skate. and i have no idea what im doing with my life.
IPROMISEtopullit: it's huge to you
exploding rob: yea but its bad.
IPROMISEtopullit: but you're putting your heart and soul into something... if i died tomorrow i could not honestly say i've lived my life to the fullest... because ive never had something like that... you do... and having something like that is a rarity
IPROMISEtopullit: and it doesnt mean your a bum or that you just have nothing else better to do... not to me anyway... it means you have a heart. not many of those out there these days
exploding rob: aww hunnie that was so damn sweeeet
exploding rob: ahhhh
exploding rob: thank you for that.

---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

IPROMISEtopullit: im sorry about the doubting thing... ill work on my trust thing ALOT i swear
exploding rob: hah its okay hun
exploding rob: ill be straight up with you all the time.
exploding rob: im not gonna lead you on and shit. or leave you guessing.
exploding rob: thats no fun.

---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

exploding rob: i <3 youu
IPROMISEtopullit: awwww
IPROMISEtopullit: i <3 you more boyfriend
exploding rob: haha aww

pretty much... I've never felt this special...

"i've got a straw"
"the moon is hiding from me"
"my camera has a rocket on it"
"suzy console"
"if i had a million dollars -- i'd buy a bunch of lightbulbs so i can have alot of ideas"
"i can't even finish the sentence!!! can i write it down?!?!"
"yo... your kid's gotta pee"
"there's so many nice bushes here... they're like grade A... and you pee on a building? What is the building gonna grow?!?!"
"sound box! no... you're a soundbox!!!"
"i'm shapeXedge... shapes offend me... imma draw a picture with a triangle walking towards me and me saying "NO... you offend me!!!"
"Peeps are like CRACK!!!"

Dammit Alex... why you gotta make shit so damn obvious...
Wow... I got chills... wow...
wowowowowow...
Can't stop!!!

New piercing....

2006-02-28T08:33:08Z

Word...

*Click To Comment*

I feel all warm and fuzzy inside.
Haha.
It doesn't hurt too much anymore.
And the swelling is subsiding.
I like it alot =)

JessicaAndreaVanessa<33333333333333333333

love love love

Chiodos <333

2006-02-08T22:12:00Z

Click picture for more!!!

Lesson One - Humanity

2005-11-14T10:37:37Z

If you're out there and your reading this... whoever you are... this goes out to you.
Thank you for being you
Thank you for being the person you know how to be
Thank you for your best perception of what is considered reality
You give me life
You give me hope for who you are
You're a person
You're amazing
I vow to you
To accept you for everything that you are
To not regret putting myself on the line for you
Because after all the pain I might endure
I concured honest opinion of a person
I took them for all that they were
No fear
I intentionally let myself feel
I've come to the conclusion that I one of the few people I know
That can be logical
Before they start to get emotional
Emotions take place when no logic of the situation exists
You're a soul
But you also bear intelligence
And you're entitled to feelings
But you're not entitled to lay your feelings upon someone else
Just to give yourself reason to come out of a situation squeaky clean
You're not innocent
No matter how much someone hurt you
You made a choice to be vunerable
Regretting your vunerablity does not help you change
Instead you find strength through a mistake you felt someone made for you
You make your own choices
You make your own mistakes
I'm such a beautiful person
I'm so confident in the fact that I don't allow myself to get hysterical
Instead I think things through
And come out loving myself
And didn't just push someone away just because I felt they did or said something "wrong"
Relationships, friendships... it's all about how confident you are in yourself
And you don't have to come out of everything a changed person
Because then your changing for someone else
You're changing to be something that's totally different from what you believe in
You're being fake
You're giving yourself rose colored glasses to see into the sun
You're not blinded
Just positive
Just squinting your way through life
To give yourself hope
That one day you'll understand everyone and everything
But you can't
Because everyone is unique
Take off the rose colored glasses
Look away from the sun
Because there's no need to blind yourself
All you need to do is step away
Stand back
Let yourself find another way to look into the sun
And then you'll find
Hate is a product of misunderstanding
Try to understand something before you believe it to be something you feel strongly enough to hate

Lesson Two - Love

Learn to love reality
Learn to understand flaws
Learn to be confident
Learn to trust
Learn to accept love
Learn to love reality

Lesson Three - Stability

Peace
Love
Understanding

http://www.dazzled.com/egosuicide/i%20am%20tragedy.mp3

Matthew -- Now known as "A Death Card Dealt" wrote this song.
I hope he doesn't mind me borrowing it.
It's so honest and beautiful.
His link is posted in my current music.
It's gotten me through being here alone.

:(

2005-10-14T16:55:45Z

My sister just called to tell me
That my Grandpa
The one who's been in the hospital for over 2 months
Is in intensive care
Due to congestive heart failure
He's lost both his legs
Had a failed liver
Had over four heart attacks in his life time
One minor heart attack recently
I'm really scared
To lose someone
To lose family

I love you all
Please take care of yourselves

suz

edit:// He died today @ 4:30.
My sisters are hysterical.
I'm keeping it together for them...
For him.
My mom called to see if I was okay...
I was talking all calm like
"Yes Mom... I'm fine... I'm helping Julie and Nereida"
And she was like "wow... you're my daughter alright!"
I want my mom here.
She deals with stuff like I do.
I love my mommy.
And I don't care who knows.

R.I.P. Grandpa
I love you always.
I remember once you told me
Not to tell anyone
But I was your favorite grandchild
I didn't know why you said it
But I think I understand now
That you knew I'd be something amazing
I'll be amazing for you
Thank you for everything strong you've given me
Thank you for my last name
Thank you for all these times you've held this family together
I promise to be just as strong, just as easily composed
To oversee but not overlook
To give out my hand to those who need it most
I can feel you smiling
You're loved

I'm sitting here alone in my room crying
I don't like the comfort... the pity...
I'll cry at the funeral though
Infront of everyone
I won't panic though
I accept this as inevitable
I accept that he was old
And suffered enough... way too much

Goodbye Grandpa Stanley

.HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME.

2005-10-02T10:56:02Z

.All I Can Do Is Laugh.
.At How Silly The Last Two Days Have Been.
.Thank You To Everyone Who Wished Me A Happy B-Day.
.And Everyone Who Partied With Me.
.I Can't... I Can't Even Begin To Describe.
.Everything Interesting That Happened.
.Hahaah.

.Special Thanks To Madison.
.Because I Can't Thank Her Enough.
.For Every Amazing Thing She's Done For Me.
.I Had Fun On My Birthday Weekend.
.And It's All Thanks To You Hun.
.<3.

.Jason You're A Fag.
.I Hope You Get AIDs.
.If You Don't Already Have Them.

.I Got In A Cake Fight With James.
.I Was Covered In Cake.
.And Got Tossed In The Pool.
.Chris Tried To Finger My Ass.
.Nick Yelled At Pall For.
."Falling Into".
.My Nipple.
.Ew, Boys.
.Smoked Weed At The Beach.
.Thought The Waves Were Out To Get Me.
.Watched Movies Back @ Evan's Condo Deal.
.Evan Got Locked In A Room.
.And I Laughed At Him Alot About It.
.I Kicked James In The Nuts.
.:).
.I Came Home And Passed Out.
.Woke Up A Little Bit Ago.
.I'm Bored.
.No One Is Up.

.Bleh.
.Pictures Later.

.Suz.

.My Name Is Suzy.

2005-09-25T13:29:14Z